Wednesday, December 16, 2009 . 11:50 PM

I'm really really exhausted. I want to just quit the whole damn thing. Am I really not good enough? Or was I too complacent... But I really worked harder this time, since the past was a wake up call, but apparently it wasn't enough. I really feel like stopping, but after years of learning it, it'll be such a waste. Why must there be such a huge jump from the others?!
Mum wants me to stop, said it's wasting her money since I can't do well in it,fine, weren't you the one who introduced it to me anyway. All u care is the money, I understand, but u weren't the one who spent half of her life learning it.
Maybe I shld pay for it myself, that way she can stop complaining abt $$$$$$$$.
She's totally in the piano club now.
Fine.
I shld really just blame myself, for not being good enough, for being apparently too lazy, for wasting precious time and money.
Sorry grace, go blame grace.